Fear & Clothing

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Last night I went to my first figure drawing class, and I was way more nervous than the model.

For the most part I’ve been doing doodles. I do some still life objects and copy from pictures and books. But figure drawing is the big time.  There are real artists sitting beside you – people who can draw from life way better than you, and they may or may not be part of the Ministry of Encouragement to which I have belonged for the last 3-4 years.

I got there late after work and found a spot.  I nodded at the other participants, already sketching, and, forcing myself not to look at anyone else’s work, started to scribble.

Once you start to scribble, nothing else – if you’re amazing or a hack, if your neighbor is Rembrandt, if you remembered to tell your husband the class ends at 7:30 instead of 7:00 – matters.  All that matters is the pen and the model.

And when the class facilitator called ‘Time’ I did peek at the other student’s work, and I do suck compared to most of them (really – one of the drawers could have been recreating a masterpiece).  But as it happens, most people who are as addicted to drawing as you are, are active members of the ministry of encouragement, whether or not they know it.  When the next pose began, fear was gone and only one thought remained –

I need to find more time to draw.  Anybody got an extra hour in the day I could borrow?

 

Good Year for Deer

Good Year for Deer, Watercolor 9x12
Good Year for Deer, Watercolor
9×12

I was looking for something to paint this morning and headed down a road I once associated with uninterrupted mountain views.  Some Mc-Mansions have begun popping up there, and I was about to give up when the phone rang and I pulled over by a woodlot at the edge of an empty corn field.

I chatted with the mechanic and looked around at the frosty field and foliage, noticing a small pile of apples at the edge of the wood. It’s been a good year for apples, but I didn’t see any apple trees.

I know someone probably left them there for the deer, and I’m hoping – even with hunting season beginning soon – it was a gift.  Hopefully it’ll be a good year for the deer too.

My Giverny

My Giverny Watercolor, 12 x 16
My Giverny
Watercolor, 12 x 16

This is the field and the hills a few hundred feet down the road from the end of our driveway.  I must have sketched

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And color penciled..

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.. and magic markered..photo      ..  and  watercolored.. photo              This road about a zillion times.

I should be bored with it.  But I’m not.  It’s my Giverny.  I know I’m no Monet, but I do know Monet spent a lot of time painting his own front yard too.

A Parent’s Alphabet

A is For - page 1 & 2

Over the weekend, I began work in earnest on a book idea that’s been rolling around in my head for sometime.  “A is for All-Nighter’ is an alphabet book for parents, at least an alphabet for the inner child lurking in every parent when they don’t know whether to laugh or cry at the latest science experiment gone wrong in what used to be a very nicely-decorated guest bathroom.

I’m hoping to have it done by then end of November, but a lot depends on how inspirational Thing1 & Thing2 are willing to be.  Judging by this morning’s efforts to get out the door (H is for Hypochondria, E is for Excuses, D is for Dawdle), I should have this book and a sequel written by the end of the week.  The pictures may take a bit longer.

 

How to Spend a Sunday

The Cider Press watercolor 5x7
The Cider Press
watercolor 5×7

By 2PM yesterday, I felt like the day had been completely wasted folding laundry and was about to be further wasted on mundane errands refilling the sock supply (because nothing is better than teenage feet for wearing holes in knitted material).

I was in the checkout line with the replacement socks when my Family Guy ‘Mom, Mom, Mommy, MOOMM’ ring tone went off. I knew it was home. But instead of adding another item to my list, the crew had called to rush me home so we could take a few buckets of freshly picked apples to a neighbor’s for pressing.

The owner of a foot that is as reliable as Pinto with a blinking left-turn signal, I knew I would be there mostly as an observer.  We have more apples than we know what to do with this year,however, so I rushed and then we rushed our 30 gallons of apples to the other side of our no-traffic light town, and by the time the sun had gone down, our neighbor had helped the Big Guy and the boys press 2 gallons of the apple-iest cider we’ve ever tasted (it may have been more, but, as with berry picking, some of the harvest gets consumed as it’s processed).

Our host and hostess served each of us a bowl of butternut soup, and we headed home in the dark with the certainty that there are few better ways to spend a Sunday afternoon.

 

 

RoadWork

 

Road Work Watercolor, 8x10
Road Work
Watercolor, 8×10

This is my favorite view of the valley in back of the Norman Rockwell Covered bridge in Arlington VT, and it’s also my favorite time of year to see it.  The leaf peepers have gone back to the cities, and the only traffic on this road are a few morning commuters and a member of the road crew charged with getting this road along the Battenkill ready for winter.

Pleins, Plans and Automobiles

A Hay Oddity Watercolor, 5x7
A Hay Oddity
Watercolor, 5×7

So I learned a powerful lesson on Saturday.

The last outdoor art fair anyone should do in Vermont is Columbus Day Weekend.  And that’s only if you have a windproof, waterproof, and – you got it – SNOW proof tent to cower in when the weather turns south, or in this case north.

It was a good lesson and had me rethinking a new plan to paint au naturale in the mornings. Or maybe it was en plein air.  It was the one that won’t get you arrested, anyway.

A lucrative but frigid festival on Saturday turned my Sunday into a day planning a winterized plein-auto studio, complete with a table for my steering wheel and a setup for brushes and water in my cupholder (that’s totally normal, right)?

Monday was glorious, of course, but today a soggy bone-chilling morning greeted us.

I headed to Manchester after dropping the kids at school, looking for the perfect vista.

Manchester, VT is a bit of an oddity.  It’s a ‘gold town’, attracting skiers and designer outlet  shoppers, with a few middle class neighborhoods still holding their own.  You can see the majestic Equinox mountain, but you have to look over the inns and malls.  There are a few cows living next to the water treatment facility, and if you get further into sub-suburban Manchester – as I did this morning – you can see a few rolled bales of hay in the front yards of some of the well-kept and growing housing developments like the one I stopped to paint this morning.

I put the iPod on shuffle and the heated seats on high.  Every so often I had to turn on the wipers to see my subject.  An older gentleman walked by, giving me the hairy eyeball until he saw a brush in my hand and grinned at me. It’s an odd setup for painting, and it made this picture of a lonely hay bale at the edge of an otherwise conventional house development seem all the more appropriate. Keeping my grinning stranger in the painting walking down the road seemed appropriate too.

Go Big and Go Home

Little Green Mess
Little Green Mess

So my collaboration with Jean Glaser helped me get bigger, and for once, going bigger is a good thing.

Her suggestion for a change in grip (unlike so many others who have told me – with some reason – to just get a grip), got me drawing fast and loose and then out to the back yard to look for some scabby green apples to draw and paint along with the fake sunflower and pumpkin which are the only foliage that are safe inside our house.

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Little Green Apples II, Watercolor 8×10

And I drew painted…

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Little Green Apples Pen & Ink and watercolor wash 5×7

And painted and drew and, Heaven help me, even cleaned up my desk a little – but only in the drawing.

Now I can’t wait to go home and see what else is lying around the house and yard that may have seemed boring a few days ago.

 

A Recipe for Un-Disaster

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Little Green Apples III Watercolor, 11×14

When you’re a kid people tell you, “Do what you love.”

When you have kids, life tells you, “Do what keeps food on the table and kids up to date on their vaccinations,” so doing what you love takes a back seat until the avalanche of bills and to-do’s pushes doing-what-you-love into the trunk like the gym shorts you keep forgetting to take out and wash.

Then your kids start thinking about what they love, and you want them to do what they love because you know it’s the only way they will be fully happy with their life.  And you stop and wonder why you stopped doing what you love and who are you to be lecturing your own kids about life anyway.

And you have a choice.

You can ignore keep the to-do’s and bills on the front burner and tell your kids to just focus on getting by, or you can move some of the to-do’s to the back burner and light the fire under what you want to be your life work.

When you do light that fire, you have to be prepared for a lot of unintended consequences.  You have to be prepared to be happier, even if you’re not richer.  You have to be prepared to feel peaceful, even if you’re dog tired from being up all night doing what you love (not that, get your minds out of the gutter).  And you have to be really prepared to start seeing the world for its possibilities and not just its problems.  You have to be ready to do things you never thought o as you (in my case this involved being uncharacteristically organized last night and getting a half a dozen orders processed in less than an hour).  And you have to be prepared to feel hope in a big way.